Me & My Ghost

This is the last tear that I will cry because of you.
My pain will now be my motivation to hate you more.
You have left me with something I can never get rid of.
The Ghost of You haunts me more then my own mistakes in the dark.
You follow me like a rain cloud, when I find a little happiness you pour down sadness.
Im living with a Good bye that I never got.
A door that will never be closed, A hole in my Heart that will never be filled.
I hope you can see just how much pain you have caused me by your death.
I just wish I could kiss you once more.
I just want to see your face, just one glance.
I want to smell your skin one last time.
I just want to feel you touch just for a second.
Why have you done this? Why did you chose Him? Why did you pick Me?
Why have I been left so broken that I cannot fix myself nor can anyone else.
Why cant I find my Happiness that once could be seen for miles.
WHY DO I CARRY THIS ALONE???