5/24/2011
Love me like this...
5/23/2011
Stench of a Man
...small things
6/23/2010
Here
6/21/2010
Choking Silence
Sitting in a candle lit bathroom relaxing in a hot tub.
I lay back with the heavy weight of our first fight.
Trying to solve the situation in my head but coming to a dead end.
Just one room away from you I know you can hear me talking.
Provoking the situation I say things that I know will cut you to the core.
Sad when I cannot get any emotion from you but anger!
But at least it is something.
I took your silence as an insult. So I grasped my glass of vodka and drank.
Setting it down on the side of the tub, I closed my eyes and lay back in the water.
With my eyes closed I could still see the flickering light of the candle on my eyelids.
The only sound I could hear was my heart beat and my deep breathes.
Falling into a calm sleep I just floated there.
As I laid there I had a feeling come over me like a Dark Cloud.
I open my eyes and grasp the side of the tub.
You stood over me with eyes of Rage.
The candle light cast a shadow across your face that Left me terrified.
My glass of vodka fell into the tub and broke, with one swift move your hands wrapped around my neck.
You plunge my head into the water…Scratching and fighting, I try to pry your hands away.
It seemed the more I struggled the harder you tried to keep me under.
All the love that we shared and all the passion we had was No longer there.
Your passion was no longer about loving me but letting me go,
And in my death would that be.
The unconsciousness was starting to set in. I could feel my life slipping away.
I made my final attempt to save myself. But I was too late.
My last gasp for air filled my lungs with water. At first it was painful but was
quickly relieved with the numbness of death.
A tingly feeling came across my body; I guess that was my soul leaving me.
That heart beat I once could hear so clearly was nothing more then a slow steady fade into a Choking Silence.
Murderous Love & Passionate Jealousy
Both are something I crave and yet I am terrified of.
Who could love me so much and feel so much?
What type of man would that bring to my door?
I know just the type of man.
I met him one night while out on the town.
He stood there dark & mysterious.
His face was clean shaven and smooth.
His body was sturdy and tone and his eyes were deep endless pools of desire.
In the moment we shared of eye contact I felt as though I was drowning.
Being brought back to my reality by the shake of a friend, I shook off his enchantment.
Danger is all I felt that whole night when I saw his face, but my insides yearned for him.
In the middle of this crowded dance floor with my friends we were all just dancing and laughing. And his face begins to fade in the drunken haze of the night. Stumbling off the dance floor I feel some grab me by my waist and embrace me tightly. In a panic I tried to release his grip but he was reluctant to let go. Instead he pulled me close, so close I could feel his breath on the back of my neck. Chills over whelmed my body. As we slowly danced to the music my heart was on fire. Who is this man? Why do I feel like this? I have fallen into a spider web and lay helplessly awaiting the bit!
(INCOMPLETE)