5/24/2011

Love me like this...

Beauty free and flowing 
Freedom that knows no bounds.
Carefree Love that sees no perfection in my being...

Today I received a gift from a fellow admirer.
The most beautiful bird in the prettiest of cages.
Her wings were bright, sleek, and unruffled.
The cage was gold and had shiny things hanging all over.
He was sweet enough to place a mirror in the cage so the bird could admire her own beauty.
As he handed it to me he whispered in my ear, 
"This bird represents our Love."
His cold lips pressed to my cheek.
At that moment it meant nothing more to me but a sweet gesture. 
I placed the bird close to a window so she could feel the warmth of the sun.
She would chirp and flutter around her cage daily.  
This young vibrant bird was so energetic & graceful.
Day after Day her cheery nature would brighten my moods.
Early one morning I had noticed her chirping became quiet and faint.
The brilliance of her color has slowly fading into a dull almost colorless blend. 
She would just sit perched on the branch facing the window.
The sparkle in her tiny beaded black eyes was no more then pits of emptiness.
As I sat back in my chair, I noticed that I too was staring out that same window. 
Longing to stretch out my own wings and feel its invigorating lift to my soul.
Realizing that like this little bird, I too was caged.   Caged in my own body to a man.
His arms are the gold steel rods and his love is the shiny things that capture my attention. 
The mirror was so I could see what he was turning me into.
Weeks passed and months tun to years...
No more did I hear the chirping or the fluttering,
No more did my soul sing and no more did my feet have bountiful steps.
All there is to do now is to join my soul among the dark despair that has fallen upon it...
Sitting at that desk day after day routinely I notice this tapping noise...
It was Life so sweetly rapping at that window in the form of a long lively green tree branch in the wind...

In that instance I ran to the window, swung it open and as the wind swept in a cool breeze, I took a deep breath and was gone...

Just a whisper in the breeze....

Now and Only now does that little Bird Sing.....

5/23/2011

Stench of a Man

He prances around like a Peacock.
Flashing all that glitters.
Grinning at his own excellence.
He struts around with a Vague meaningless expression.
Acceptance, Adoration, & Admiration are all he seeks! 
So smooth and So sleek
So confident and so cunning.
Oh how foul his vanity and conceit are to me.
Disgusted and Sick are my feeling for him.
His fragrance of arrogance stings my nostrils as he walks by.  
Breathing him in is as foul as the decay of mortal flesh falling off the bones.
And yet we still breath him in and we still fancy those feathers he waves around.

...small things

His spirit wraps my soul just as the blanket we shared.
For that moment I was more then what I was when I walked in.
His crooked grim & his intrigued gaze just captures me.
Many men have come & many have gone...But this one just seems to belong.
Its like a puzzle that is almost coming together and the picture is more clear.
Although its missing significant amounts of pieces...I can see his beauty in its lack
of wholeness. Its the imperfections that draw me like a moth to the light.
Never knowing whether it was going to be the last time I looked upon his splendor..
The mystery of his dark eyes and the touch of his fingertips...
The softness of his skin and the rough emotional scars he wears...

Pain is beauty...
Suffering is graceful...
And Loneliness is merciful...

For all of these we bare alone and it build us up & on...